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Different from you.

them.

Aaron
Celestine
Cheryl
Chloe
Darren
Edeee
Esther
Eunice
Hueyhuey
Janelle
Janice
Jazreel
Joyce
Justina
Melinda
Michelle
Minghui
Siangyee
Tanny
Yolanda
Yuwen
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Thursday, July 22, 2010

it took a few 'backspace' before I could even start a proper blog post. It has been the toughest 3days of my life; my dearest mom has just left me and gone to a better place. Her long term illness took a turn for the worse and she left us peacefully on 20th July 2010.

The phone call I received that morning, that shaky voice of my grandpa's when he broke the news to me, the sunken face of my dad when we first met that very day, the tears that trickled down the cheeks of my younger brother, the photo of my mom at the wake; I am pretty sure all that have given a clue on how I am feeling right now. My heart feels very heavy, and I am a little lost, everything happened too fast, beyond our expectations. Some weeks ago, mom and I had a talk after she got discharged from the hospital, she reminded me to take care of my brother when she is not around, I promised her. When I made my promise, I wasn't expecting myself to bear that responsibility that soon. I had a call from her few days before she left me, she asked when will I be back to visit her, I replied, a week's time. We met in less than a week's time, but not the way we wanted it to be.

It was really painful to watch her get tortured by her illness for so long, to see the drastic change in her body mass from time to time, to realise how much she aged over these few years, to remind her the amount of medicine she had to take on a daily basis, to travel to and fro the hospital so often. I have observed all these changes over the years, but one thing remains unchanged till today, her love for me and my brother. Right now at this very moment, even though she's no longer around, I can see feel her love for me, only wanting the best for me.

It has been a pity, I never got myself a driving license, never got the chance to drive her around, never got the chance to pay for an overseas trip for her with my own money, never got a chance to cook a proper meal for her, never got the chance to tell her how much I love her. But, I will always remember the time I hugged her so tight and planted a kiss on her forehead.

She is finally freed from all the sufferings, all the pain she had gone through these few years. I know she is somewhere in a safe place, and she will not have to undergo the torture ever again.

And mom, just want to let you know, I love you a lot, rest in peace. I know we will meet again in our next life, I still want to be your daughter, you have been a wonderful mom to me.

Friends, thanks for all the messages; I am doing fine. I am sad for sure, it's gonna take me a while to get over it, but I guess I will be alright one day. For friends who went the extra mile, coming all the way down to my hometown, I really appreciate that a lot, and I am very touched, really thankful for the company, it did make a difference.

♥KERR. Different from you.
them. Aaron Celestine Cheryl Chloe Darren Edeee Esther Eunice Hueyhuey Janelle Janice Jazreel Joyce Justina Melinda Michelle Minghui Siangyee Tanny Yolanda Yuwen Soccerettes Soccernet Credits. ©Glamouresque.	Thursday, July 22, 2010 it took a few 'backspace' before I could even start a proper blog post. It has been the toughest 3days of my life; my dearest mom has just left me and gone to a better place. Her long term illness took a turn for the worse and she left us peacefully on 20th July 2010. The phone call I received that morning, that shaky voice of my grandpa's when he broke the news to me, the sunken face of my dad when we first met that very day, the tears that trickled down the cheeks of my younger brother, the photo of my mom at the wake; I am pretty sure all that have given a clue on how I am feeling right now. My heart feels very heavy, and I am a little lost, everything happened too fast, beyond our expectations. Some weeks ago, mom and I had a talk after she got discharged from the hospital, she reminded me to take care of my brother when she is not around, I promised her. When I made my promise, I wasn't expecting myself to bear that responsibility that soon. I had a call from her few days before she left me, she asked when will I be back to visit her, I replied, a week's time. We met in less than a week's time, but not the way we wanted it to be. It was really painful to watch her get tortured by her illness for so long, to see the drastic change in her body mass from time to time, to realise how much she aged over these few years, to remind her the amount of medicine she had to take on a daily basis, to travel to and fro the hospital so often. I have observed all these changes over the years, but one thing remains unchanged till today, her love for me and my brother. Right now at this very moment, even though she's no longer around, I can see feel her love for me, only wanting the best for me. It has been a pity, I never got myself a driving license, never got the chance to drive her around, never got the chance to pay for an overseas trip for her with my own money, never got a chance to cook a proper meal for her, never got the chance to tell her how much I love her. But, I will always remember the time I hugged her so tight and planted a kiss on her forehead. She is finally freed from all the sufferings, all the pain she had gone through these few years. I know she is somewhere in a safe place, and she will not have to undergo the torture ever again. And mom, just want to let you know, I love you a lot, rest in peace. I know we will meet again in our next life, I still want to be your daughter, you have been a wonderful mom to me. Friends, thanks for all the messages; I am doing fine. I am sad for sure, it's gonna take me a while to get over it, but I guess I will be alright one day. For friends who went the extra mile, coming all the way down to my hometown, I really appreciate that a lot, and I am very touched, really thankful for the company, it did make a difference.