I want to be your favourite hello and hardest goodbye.
I thought I was special in your eyes. I just wanted a little more attention, a little more to overcome those miseries, a little more to feel wanted, a little more to prove that my existence still has its worth. Such little things do bother me much; we all know that I think a lot.
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Like a merry go round, my life is spinning continuously as well. I spent 5 hours at the emergency unit last evening waiting for my mom to be warded; I spent another 3 hours accompanying her in the ward today. I shall spend the night there tomorrow. I don't like the smell of a hospital, it smells like depression. I always say I dislike the smell of cigarettes, but now I am saying, I HATE the smell of the hospital, or maybe I just can't stand the smell of the medicines. Hoping for my mom to be discharged soon, crossing my fingers tight tight! Get well soon Mommy dearest! ♥
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I will be strong. I will have my meals regularly. I will be healthy. I will take good care of myself. I have to stop bullying my body.